The Questions for Mom

  Do You Ever Feel Invisible Mom ?

My oldest son had had a rough week. At 14 years of age you are bound to. The challenges of fitting in, having friends and being accepted are all there. They are not only there, but they are there with pressure. My son is an observer. I am amazed at the things he shares with me, things he see's and notices. He often sees kids with perks getting things he doesn't or being accepted because of position.  That is a part of life that will never change even as you become an adult son. That will always be, but how do you tell that to a 14 year old?

I wanted to fix this, yet I know this is something that will happen in his life sometimes. His keen observation can be a good thing in his life and keep him out of trouble. But it can also lead to hurt and disappointment if he doesn't learn at an early age how to get up, move on and persevere. To not stay in a slump but to realize he always has value to God. To know that God can be his confidences tell his very last breath. His strength in hard times, his companion in lonely seasons. As much as I pray and want my kids to learn this, I also know they are kids and these things hurt. I kept what I have learned in my 34 years to myself . I flashed back to my teens. " Oh yah, that was rough." I told myself. I sat and just listened.

            After his very rough day he asked me, " Mom, do you ever feel invisible?" My heart dropped from my chest to my ankles, that quick and that hard. No mom wants to hear their kids feel this way. No mom likes to see their child hurting or left out. Yet every mom will. It reminded me how connected my heart is to my kids, when they hurt I hurt. I stood there a minute controlling my emotions and not letting them control me. I wanted at that moment to say, " Yes Jonn, I do. I do know what it is like to feel invisible." I wanted to fix it. I wanted him to feel accepted. I wanted to make this right. But I stopped my motherly forces from over taking and just listened as he then began to pour out his heart to his dad.

I was getting ready for work and I wanted nothing more than to call in, and tell my job, " Uh family crisis. son feels invisible, have to fix this, can’t come in tonight." But I knew I couldn't fix this. I could encourage, remind and love him. But truly I could not make this perfect for him like I wanted.

My heart still heavy I gave as what I'm sure God probably saw as an exhausted glance. " Lord" , I said, " I can’t fix this for my son. He is hurting. I know you love him. I don't know what to do !"

My fear was that this might make him give up. I went about putting on my scrubs , and attaching my badge ,still heavy for my 14 year old. I was ready to leave for work when a car pulled up in the drive. A recent friend and his mom were at our door. " Is Jonnethen home ?" he asked. I gladly called for him and he came to the door surprised.  The mom said she just bought pizzas and rented a movie and they would love to have Jonnethen over to hang out. She then said, " Your son is such a joy to be around. He is so polite and respectful. I love him hanging out with my son. He can come over anytime !" My heavy heart lightened as I watched Jonn grab his hat and wallet and head out the door with a new spring in his step.

 I waved goodbye wondering how a mood could change so quickly, and thankful for this wonderful lady and her son that stopped by. I finished getting ready for work with a lighter heart. It wasn't tell my drive to work that it hit me. I remembered my heavy hearted prayer. I truly saw this as Gods reply to Jonns question. " Am I invisible, do you ever feel invisible Mom ?" If you live long enough you will at one time or another. But if you know Jesus you know that is not the truth from Gods perspective.

My son is Gods child. I love my son and don't want to see him hurt. I think God answered this teen in such a great way. His wonderful answer of friends and pizza reminded me, that God loves my son even more then I do or ever could. He heard this moms prayer. He heard this 14 year old question . " Am I invisible ?" My reply is, to others son maybe? But to God son, NEVER !

Micah 7:7- But as for me, I will look to the Lord; I willwait for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me.                         http://myrealliferealgod.blogspot.com/p/the-questions-for-mom_18.html